Sometimes, I just don't get people.

How is possible that Lithuania's entry in the 2010 Eurovision Song Contest didn't score enough votes make it to tonight's* final? It had everything going for it. A nonsense song with a catchy tune. Six attractive young men dancing up a storm, whipping the audience into a frenzy even before the big costume reveal; six pairs of matching brown tartan trousers whipped off to uncover silver spangled short pants. Is that not picture perfect Eurovision?

When I tallied my scorecard at the end of the night, after awarding points for the song, fashion, dance, performance and X factor, Lithuanan act InCulto's song Eastern European Funk, while not even remotely funky, was at the top.

For Lithuania not to make the final 20 is a travesty, particularly when you consider the acts that did make the final, whose performances weren't as strong as InCulto's. I'm still shuddering at the though of Ireland taking to the stage again, not least because of the frightful, unflattering frock adorning the frame of past Eurovision winner Niamh Kavanagh.

Lithuania were not the only entry that should be gracing the stage tonight, but won't. Sieneke, from the Netherlands, was very stiff to miss out with the cheerful Ik Ben Verlied (Sha-la-lie). Composed by Pierre Kartner, who is also responsible for The Smurf Song, the song is a fun sing along tune. On the Eurovision stage Sieneke was joined by 3 back up singers and 2 giant clock figurines. You can catch a video of their performance on the Eurovision website, but sadly their Eurovision 2010 dream is over.

With my favourites out of the race, I'll be cheering for the entries from Cyprus (mostly comprised of people from Wales), Romania (despite their decision to rhyme fire with desire, repeatedly), and the rock gods from Turkey (the robot slicing itself with an angle grinder mid-song should secure them a win). I hear the Russian entry is pretty good too.

*In real world time the Final has already occurred. In Australian Television time, the Final will be decided tonight.

Lucky, lucky me.

It's Friday night. I've got Eurovision on in the background. A muted background, as the television and stereo speakers appear to be failing.

I've had a few glasses of wine, a fairly non-descript New Zealand Sauvignon Blanc. And I'm eating cheese bicsuits dipped in salsa and reheated fettucine carbonara.

I'm sitting in the kitchen. The laptop is on the bench in the middle of the room, and I'm sitting on the step-ladder chair that Louise gave me. Awkwardly, because I can't slide my legs under anything - they're butting up against the cupboard doors, and I'm leaning forward at the waist.

I have the mobile phone close by, because I've been exchanging text messages with my dearest friends. Sorting out arrangements for tomorrow, and sorting through the day's events.

I've had a hard week emotionally. The hardest in a while. I reckon I have lived long enough to appreciate the cyclical nature of life. What goes around comes around. Life's a rollercoaster. What goes up must come down.

It's hard though, when it all goes down at once. When every area of your life takes a hit. It leaves you feeling shattered.You get hit so hard that you feel like you're going to keel over, or you can't breathe.

Thankfully, I have amazing friends who stepped forward to prop me up. You know you have love in your life when that happens, and I appreciate just how lucky I am to have these wise, strong women in my life. It would be harder to put back all the pieces, without them.

But put them back I must.

A day for healing music

The road to recovery can be long, and you need to stop every once in a while for a rest, to help the healing.

The music that helped my healing today.

The Polyphonic Spree album - Together We're Heavy
Radiohead albums - OK Computer and The Bends
Dire Staits album - Money for Nothing (until I got bored with it)
Ben Harper album - The Will to Live
They Might Be Giants track - Where do they make balloons?
Archie Roach track - Walking into doors
Geoffrey Gurrumul Yunipingu & Sting track - Every breath you take
Fleet Foxes track - Ragged wood

I hope you're all having a lovely Saturday.